Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Queen of the Clouds, Renee and Biggest Pet Peeve


It's been interesting the past month since I've been commuting to downtown, I actually get to really listen to my music without any distractions. Lately, I started listening to a new up and coming singer named Tove Lo from Sweden and I will tell you I am obsessed with her new album; her voice, her lyrics, the music just really takes me places.

My absolute favorite tracks are her hit single "Habits" and "My Gun", which I'm sure will be the second single or something because I literally cannot get enough of that song and listen to it on repeat.


Anyway, how about the latest pics of Renee Zellweger? I honestly never thought she was pretty with the small exception of Chicago cuz I thought she kicked ass in that movie, but now? Now she looks worse than before #sorrynotsorry. She must've done some serious hardcore drugs because she looks like she aged 20 years. WTF right? I'm like everyone, can't even recognize the girl anymore.


I feel a little bad for her though. I wonder what is going on in her world that made her think a drastic change to her appearance was even necessary. Maybe it was a gradual thing, but for us to see the latest pics now, is like whoa. I always thought she looked like she was sucking on a lemon {see pic above} and maybe she knew it too and went under the knife/drugs? I don't know, but I don't ever see myself getting plastic surgery unless it was due to some extreme circumstances {knock on wood}. To each their own though right?

That's one thing y'all should know about me is that I don't judge people. I think people make mistakes and that's what makes us human. I don't have a right to call people out on things when I know if I was judged by Jesus himself I would not be blameless or spotless. I got shit that I've done that I'm not proud of and I will never air someone's laundry out in front of them to prove a point. I think it's pointless to try to show someone you're right. Who's to say you're right about things when you're just going off of your own experiences anyway?

So I guess my biggest pet peeve is confiding in people and when shit hits the fan they use what you've told them as ammunition to prove a point. Guess what? That does not work for me and I cut people off real quick when that happens. It happened a couple of years ago with a girlfriend of mine and she attacked me with bringing stuff about me that I had shared with her. I could've easily turned around and done the same to her with shit she told me that she did, but I didn't. I just took the high road and let her go because I am not gonna stoop to that level. What is all of that for anyway? Are we curing diseases or bringing about world peace with that behavior? I think not so why even participate in that nonsense? That's for the birds.

I also like to add to that "Do you pay my bills? Did you give birth to me? Are you Jesus?" NO, so don't give me that shit! If you're a judgy person, we are not gonna be friends or associate with each other on any mother fucking level because I avoid those people like ebola the plague. And finally, so what if I do what you don't think is right? Is that going to alter your life in any way? Are you going to be out on the street because of my actions? Are you gonna jump off a cliff because I didn't heed your advice? Hell NOOOOOO. #realitycheck

I feel so much better letting those confessions out. With that, let's play some Tove Lo and let's hear your confessions!! Also linked up with Helene and Tay for #Blogtober.

PS. Going on a first date after all with that guy from Tinder. It's my birthday weekend so why not right? If a guy wants to treat me, then so be it.





Helene in Between Blogtober

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Well That Escalated Quickly

I swear sometimes I feel like my life is a freakin' novela. Yeah I said it because I often wonder if I'm getting punk'd and Ashton Kutcher is gonna come out of the bushes and laugh at me. There's something about dating that gives me a big headache as of late. Blame it on my latest heartbreak or what have you, but I just don't have the energy for it.


So I am chillin' at home last night watching The Walking Dead and mind you my heart is racing because what's going down is downright more scary than those damn zombies when I get a text from the new guy I recently met on Tinder. I haven't met him in person yet by the way so we're just chatting here and there. He texts me and I respond with "hey". It's Monday, I'm watching my show and drinking my wine, not really in the texting mood. Now if you were to call me that would be a whole 'nother story.

He responds, "That's all I get is a hey? Smh". Of course, I'm doing my thing and I don't respond because I have no energy for this bull. What would have been a better response given that we've only talked for 2 days? 'Hey' seems perfectly fine to me. Was he expecting me to be like "Oh hey, I'm so glad you texted. I was just thinking about you LOL". Get the fuck outta here dude. Don't let the door hit you in the behind either.. or do, whatever.

I am not gonna be sweating you so keep it moving. What's more is that I haven't even met you so you giving me attitude is not the way to do it. Dude clearly has issues and I know I have my own shit to deal with and don't need anybody else's pile. Thanks, but no thanks.

To tell y'all the truth, even if this guy was perfect I still need more time to heal from the number Rico did on me. We talked the other night for an hour and he kept saying how sorry he was and I heard him out, but I didn't have anymore words to say. At this point, it's like a record playing over and over and I'm ready to upgrade to an MP3, or something like that. Timing is always off and that's why I feel like my life is a novela. Nobody gets their happy ending, or do they?

My bed is calling me right about now so that's my cue to be off like a prom dress. On a side note, did anyone see the latest Walking Dead episode? Holy shit! I think I almost peed my pants. Just sayin'.


Monday, October 20, 2014

Last Week of Being 31


A week from today it will be my birthday. I can't even wrap my head around the fact that another year came and went. I think the older I get now, the less I am keen on going out, let alone get dressed up for Halloween. Last year I was Queen of Hearts and even got 2nd place in a Halloween contest. I guess this year I ran out of ideas and have no desire to dress up.

This weekend was pretty low key. Something about working in downtown really can wear you out, I know for me anyway. I didn't even get to go to the state fair since my friends were all tied up with other events, boo! I did however, go shopping like it was gonna go out of style. Got some new undies from Victoria's Secret, dressy shirts from NY&CO and some good 'ol makeup. I did wanna get some new ankle boots, but I'll wait 'til next payday.


Went back to my natural nails and got the next gen gel in dark purple. It now officially feels like fall.


I played with my makeup this weekend and tried on my new lippy in Smoked Purple by MAC. I am so not used to wearing such a dark shade, but I think it looks really good. What do y'all think?


My baby got groomed and he looks so cute! At least I got him a Halloween costume, which I have yet to put him in it. Next weekend for sure.

I got on Tinder... I know I said I was done with online dating, but I had to give this app a go. So far I have been chatting with this guy who's also Puerto Rican and he's really sweet. He lives in Fort Worth so we'll meet halfway soon and go on our first date. In case you missed yesterday's post about me moving on, go here.

How was y'alls weekend?!



Sunday, October 19, 2014

Heart and Mind Caught Up

One of the things that turns me off besides insecurity is a guy who doesn't know what he wants. I think it's officially become my dating pet peeve. I dealt with that with Pedro when we were dating and now with Rico. The grass is not always greener fellas! It's not gonna get any better than me, hahaha. I kid, but seriously though why walk away from someone who genuinely cares for them because they don't know if they want to keep being single.

To that I say "Ain't nobody got time for dat!" because it's the plain truth. I don't have time to wait on you to decide if you want to be with me. I don't have time to deal with your bullshit and I'm not even your girl. What's it gonna be like when I am?

I know my heart was clouded behind these rose colored glasses that things would work out. Apparently, nothing really changed on his end. Not even a day went by and we were already bickering at each other. Anything I would say, he would get defensive and fight me on what I would say. What is wrong with you dude?

I know he pushed me away, but he kept riding that ride all the way home this past week. Still pushing me away and not letting shit go. I'm exhausted emotionally and just giving up once and for all. It took me a couple of tries I know, but at least I finally reached the point where I really need to move on.

So you can give me a pat on the back if you want, or tell me you told me so. The thing that is hardest is to take your own advice. I would've advised myself a month ago to keep it moving, but my heart wasn't ready. I think my mind and heart have finally caught up to each other and they are both nodding that yes, let's move right the fuck along.

People say that I shouldn't be so giving right off the bat or get too involved into guys, but I don't know how not to do that. Maybe it's just the way I'm wired. When I like someone, I show it and maybe that's what gets me in trouble cuz the guys I like are not into that. Well fuck you guys! This is the way I am and if you can't handle it then you're not the right guy for me. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I don't think that's gonna change anytime soon; or ever.