Friday, September 19, 2014

Bella Got Her Groove Back

I left the house this morning on time and on the back of my mind wondered if I shut off my curling iron or not. Hoping there's an auto shut off, haha.

Man this week was insane and boy am I glad it's Friday. I'm still waiting on my application to go through for my new apartment so it's been a bit stressful. Work is going great, almost done with training and will be on the phones next week!

I feel better since the other night I wrote that Heart Broken post. Went out with my girl Ana last night and we had a great time! This weekend we may go to Oktoberfest and then hit up a hookah bar since she's never been. Also going to dinner tonight with Melanie since I haven't seen her for awhile.

Might do some retail therapy and finish watching Season 1 of Dexter. God, I love that show already and I'm glad I still got 7 seasons to catch up on. I will try to see if I can get the new iPhone! You know I'm gonna get it in gold too. If not, I'll wait until it gets closer to my birthday.

I hope you guys have a fab weekend!! Bella got her groove back :)

EDIT - Got approved for my apartment! Yay!! Deep Ellum here I come in November!

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Heart Broken

If I could write a letter to my 18 year old self I would mainly tell her to not be with a guy for 8 years. After two years he should know if you're the one.

Sometimes I wonder if I really did lose time with being with someone who didn't want to marry me and it makes me feel like there's something wrong with me, but I know that's not true.

Maybe it was the wine I drank tonight, but I feel really defeated. I don't see the fairytale that most people get in my sights at all. I don't get why I keep dating these losers who bring me nothing but disappointment and really test my faith that a real guy is out there.

When I'm not dating anyone, I'm good. I have fun with my friends, do things to make myself happy, keep busy etc. but I've always been a relationship kinda girl. I wish I could have someone to share the cool moments I experienced or I'm about to experience with them.

Sam Smith is coming next month and tonight my friend and I found out is gonna be hard to get tickets {at a reasonable price} because it's SOLD OUT. Ugh. This event alone would've made my birthday month the top of the top. But where there's a will there's a way and I am not taking no for an answer, so we're gonna most likely buy tickets from a scalper at the door and get our asses in because I have to see Sam Smith! It's life and death at this point, best believe it, but it is.

I have never felt so moved listening to anyone except Sam Smith. His voice can move my soul and I feel like I'm crumbling into tiny pieces because his voice is OH MY GOD! out of this world. So although most would be embarrassed by this, I know how emotional I can be so I will have a box of Kleenex in tow because I know the waterworks will be on full blast when he croons his way onto our stage at the House of Blues.

Anyway, I am just rambling and my heart is heavy with emotions because I really liked this guy and he broke my heart. Guys are so stupid it's only a matter of time when he'll come looking for me and I don't know what I'll do, but I just know right now I can't keep putting myself through this rollercoaster; been there done that.

I know tomorrow will be another day and I will be back to my normal self, but right now it's an all time low.

Sam is singing me to sleep and I find comfort in that.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Confessions of a Blogaholic: The Key

You know that saying 'Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me?', I can't help but think of that today because I was indeed fooled and now I am officially done with dating. While people may say I make dating mistakes, who doesn't? I think it's part of life and learning what you want and don't want. I know I don't want to be with someone who doesn't express how they feel or think and then sneak it up on me after the fact {we're talking two days later}. Then doesn't even give you the respect to talk it over the phone and does it through text. What's more is that when trying to reach out to them over the phone, they don't answer and you know they're doing it on purpose. Bastard.

I try not to take naps during the week because that only means that I will end up staying up later and struggle with falling asleep. As a matter of fact, it is 2am right now and I should've been in bed hours ago, but I digress. I took a nap earlier and when I woke up I saw I had a long ass text on my phone from Rico. I will spare you the details, but basically telling me how much it bothered him that I didn't make him breakfast on Saturday and made him pay for brunch by not picking up the tab. I'm sorry, but we are dating! I could see if you were my official boyfriend then I would pitch in every now and then, but that's not the case. Also, why can't he open his mouth and say "Hey Bella, let's go dutch for brunch". I would respect him that much more for, oh I don't know, communicating?!

Not only the communication was lacking, but he drops out of the face of the earth for a couple of days at a time. Why would I wanna go out of my way for him when he's not being consistent. Make him breakfast? That's something I would do if you were my boyfriend. Because I'm a nice person, I even considered it and asked him what he had in his fridge and he said he had no groceries.

Dating tip: Ladies, do not give a guy boyfriend privileges by making him breakfast. He should be the one making you breakfast if anything. 

Honestly, he can keep on going his merry way because I don't have the patience to deal with someone who tries to nickel and dime me for our quality time together and it's so off putting. He's so immature to lay that lame text on me and then disappear again by not answering my call. I love myself enough to not put up with such nonsense and so now it's been confirmed that there's nothing else I can do.

For now, I am keeping my key to my heart to myself and not unlocking anything until the right one shows me he's worthy. I feel like Charlotte in Sex and the City where she says "I've been dating since I was 15, where is he? I'm exhausted!" because that pretty much sums up how I feel. I'm exhausted emotionally and physically so with that good day and goodnight.

Don't forget to link up your Confessions.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Lily Allen

Happy Tuesday! Blogging to you from work because last night I was so damn tired there was no way I would have the chance to blog. Coffee is my best friend right now and I'm hoping this day will go quick. In the meantime, let me recap my first experience going to a Lily Allen concert because that's what went down last night.

One word to describe Lily's concert: AMAZING. 

The show started off with Sheezus which is the first track on her new album, Sheezus. Loved it and it was cool how we got to see her so upclose. I think this is the closest I have ever been to an artist at a concert.

I liked how she interacted with the audience and kept cracking jokes here and there. She also filmed us with her phone all while holding on to the mic and a cig. Yeah she smoked on stage, hilarious.

She sang pretty much all the songs I wanted to hear. Last outfit change she came out in a kitty outfit, too cute. It was a really good concert and next time she comes to Dallas, I will be there like white on rice.

Give me that crown bitch, I wanna be Sheezus!