Friday, November 9, 2012

I Got Stood Up... Again

I hate dating, it's ridiculous and I don't think I'm gonna do it anymore. It's like when you have alcohol and you feel good after a few drinks, but the morning after you have a bad headache and just hate life! I wouldn't hate dating if at least people would communicate with each other. Often times I try to be open minded and give a guy a chance who I normally wouldn't go for, or be that attracted to, only to be dissed and I'm left wondering "WTF?!". I'm not saying I'm hot stuff and I need to be bowed down like I'm a queen, but guys would love to have me on their arm. What I find these days is that guys don't know how to be real anymore. Also, they don't give you the time of day if they're not interested, even if they find you attractive. As for me, I am willing to hang out with a guy I don't think is a 10, he could be a 5, but I'm open to the idea of going on a date with him.

Maybe it's time I start to think like men and not give them a minute of my time if I'm not that interested. They do it, so why can't I? I'm always real and honest with someone and it seems that some guys don't know how to be just that. If you don't want to go out with me, tell me in a not so mean way, but tell me. Instead, I get a lot of the "I'm not feeling good to go out tonight" or "I'm working". Okay, I can be fair and understand that some days we don't feel our best, but I don't get it how they can say that and turn around and post on Facebook that they just went to the movies the day after they tell you they're sick.

It's like, dude you are a liar and a bad one at that. Sigh.

Why is going on a date these days so complicated? It's not like I'm gonna ask you to be my boyfriend or that I wanna marry you. This week I had a guy reschedule a date with me twice and when the day came, no word from him. I got stood up. The night before I wanted to get excited about going on a date, but immediately my heart and mind told me not to because it may not happen. I was sad to realize that I was right all along.

Some people think I'm always going on dates, but the truth is I haven't gone out on a date since last month when my friend came into town to see me. The time before that I hadn't gone out on a date since sometime in September and I never heard from the guy again even though we went to the movies and that was it. I ended up meeting one of my girlfriends who I haven't seen in awhile and she was the best date ever!

So there it is, dating sucks and if people would be real with each other it would get a lot of questions answered and no false hopes would emerge or disappointments. I'm not going to date anymore because I'm tired of it. Tired of the hurt, the disrespect, the miscommunication, being dissed, just fuck it all. I'm gonna focus on me, my career and getting through these holidays.