Monday, November 26, 2012

Stepping Stone

It's Monday! Beginning of a new week, start of Christmas decorations. I hope you guys had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday and got some great deals on Black Friday/Cyber Monday. I haven't been able to go shopping, just been focusing on landing a full time gig somewhere and so tomorrow I have a third interview.

Been doing some thinking about how your outlook on life can not only affect you, it can also affect others in a big way. A lot of people I know, including my mom are very pessimistic and I choose not to be that way, but it doesn't come easy sometimes. Right now my life is chaotic and I'm trying to keep myself together and not give into negativity or stress myself out. It's also challenging when friends that I have in my life can't be supportive or encouraging and instead are so selfish that they don't see the bigger picture. Last night for instance I celebrated a friend's birthday and I'm not sure if it was the alcohol combined with stress but things got really messed up and I had to get out of that scene before I would put a cap on someone's ass. I find it funny when grown ups have a fit of rage and start acting a fool, I'm like really? Is that even necessary? Get yourself together dude. 

Sometimes friends go through the exact same thing you're also going through, but I choose everyday to think positive, know that something better is coming my way. I feel sad for those who can't also do the same and instead rely on substances such as prescription drugs or go heavy on alcohol to block it out. I'm not saying I'm perfect, but I like to think that I handle myself well when the going gets rough.

They say if you're not happy single, you won't be happy taken. I think that's very true and it all comes down to that. If you can't look past the struggles and instead wallow in self pity then you don't have anyone else to blame but yourself. I can't rely on anyone to support me right now, not even family and that's unfortunate, but it's reality. This is just a stepping stone I gotta get over and I'll be alright.