Wednesday, November 14, 2012

'Tis the Season

If I want to get depressed then going over my Facebook wall will do the trick. Why? Because this is the season, time of year where everyone is getting married, getting into new relationships or engaged. Even Mr. Big is officially now in a relationship with his girl from months ago. I don't get it how one of the biggest players and one of the biggest jerks I've ever come across is in a relationship. Why? Whatever happened to being a good person and being blessed with a significant other? Why do they get to be in a relationship and not me?

Is it just for the sake of not wanting to be alone and want someone there to cuddle with? Does that mean that come spring and summer that they'll be single again? I hope so! haha. I definitely don't want the men from my past and it doesn't matter either way whether they are with someone or not. All I'm saying is that it doesn't seem to add up how a person could do so wrong to someone yet they get to have what you wanted all along at the snap of a finger.

I know I'm throwing a pity party and you're welcome to join and chime in with me. Today is just one of those days for me I guess.

What's worse is that when one of my friends is excited about a new guy in her life and she's telling me their conversations step by step and how sweet he is to her, I don't want to hear it. I listen because I would want to be listened to if it were me, but now I'm the friend that is bitter and doesn't want to be excited with my friend when usually I would be. UGH. I hate this feeling and I know it will pass, but it's here for now manifesting in its horrible way it knows how.

I want a cuddle buddy. Someone I can go to Starbucks with and sit for awhile and talk. Someone I can hold hands with and steals kisses from me. Someone who comes over for a movie and hot chocolate. Someone who will buy me a Christmas tree because I was dumb enough to throw my little tree away and decorate it with me. Someone who will call me and acknowledge that I'm alive and deserve attention and to be loved!!! :(

I think it's time for a nap and try not to think of this stupid feeling anymore.